coexistent: (Default)
roxas (rucksack) ([personal profile] coexistent) wrote2015-07-03 05:05 pm
Entry tags:

ic contact;

"I'm not around, so... leave a message, I guess."
ceded: (pic#7507755)

[personal profile] ceded 2016-01-24 07:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ Does she know it for sure? It's ... more like a conviction. Something that made her chest squeeze. It was a private thought, something that powered her when she made the final decision to desert and go on what she thought would be her final quest... before Axel caught up to her, before Xemnas corrupted her, before everything went so wrong... on the day of the last perfect sunset they shared.

It wasn't a thought she'd shared with either of them, because... would they have believed her? Something about Roxas's silence, the way he looks down, and his reply...

Xion hoods her eyes. She also does something he might find strange. She scoots over so she can lean against him, shoulder to shoulder. It's a barely there contact, just a little. But she's learned a lot about hugs, and holding hands, and the power of all kinds of touches... and she thinks they could be important with Roxas, too. They'd sometimes bump shoulders when all three of them were horsing around and laughing... but this is a little different. She wants a connection... ]


If that's not love... then what is?

[ Of course, the question that hangs between them is the one she raised: will they ever know? She sighs. ]

No, don't be sorry. I do have a reason for asking. [ Xion shifts, uncomfortably. ]

I found out... at least... I'm pretty sure there's a boy that likes me. And... [ She gestures as if to encapsulate everything they've both just said. ] I'm not sure what to do.
ceded: (worried » ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ғᴇᴇᴛ)

[personal profile] ceded 2016-01-26 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
It feels unfair...

[ It does feel unfair. And the consternation of it wells up in Xion's chest as she leans against him, frowning sharply at her lap.

"What do we need hearts for?"

Now more than ever she feels that question so keenly. If she can love... if they can feel pain, and anger, and confusion... if they can want things... why do they need hearts in the first place? Was that... just another scam? More wool that Xemnas pulled over their eyes, to try to get them to obey? Could they just be... holding themselves back? Or is she just telling herself this now because she wants to be human? ]


Maybe Axel was wrong. [ She sounds stubborn, and wounded, and tired. ] Maybe Xemnas was wrong too. They didn't always have all the answers. [ When Xion looks up at Roxas, there's fire in her eyes, and she takes one of his hands. ]

Roxas... I don't know if we'll ever get hearts. But maybe... we need to stop waiting.

[ This isn't about Dipper anymore. This is about It feels unfair. ]
ceded: dammit eridan. (pic#7093511)

[personal profile] ceded 2016-01-26 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
What?!

[ Xion sits up straight, offended and angry now herself. ] Don't bring Riku into this! That's different!

[ Of course it was different. She knew so little then. At least, that's what it feels like. It feels like twisting the knife to bring Riku into a conversation that should be about the two of them, anyway, and her hurt anger is on her face. ]

And what makes you think I want to take someone's heart?! That's an awful thing to think! I don't want to take anyone's hearts! Why do you think I said to set Kingdom Hearts free?! [ That's an unfair thing to bring up, too, but now she's not thinking, just lashing out instead. ] All I'm saying is, why do we need hearts if we already feel things?! I know what I feel, Roxas! No one can take that away from me! Not Axel, or Saix, or Xemnas! Or you! Maybe you can all think I'm some silly, stupid little Replica for that, but that doesn't change how I feel!

[ She stands up, pacing away from his bed, her head bowed. ]

... I don't know what we're supposed to do. I'm just tired of waiting for answers we're never going to get.