I think it will! I know he really likes Ruby and I'm pretty sure she really likes him, and so it's mutual, and nothing can stop the power of two people who like each other! So I think it'll be okay.
Yeah, like having a crush. I know I tried to explain it to you [ a lot ] but I think it'll probably be easier to understand it if you experience it for yourself one day.
[ This is not actually a conversation she wants to have. ]
[roxas isn't sure what kind of answer he was expecting from that question, but it feels strange for sure.
so she's had a crush before. she knows what it feels like...]
Is it really like what the manga says? [he asks, a little quieter. the truth is that he wants to understand those feelings, but he can't make sense of them. maybe... she can help him, if she's been through it before.]
[ DON'T LOOK AT HER LIKE THAT, ROXAS, MARY IS TOTALLY CAPABLE OF DOKIS AS SHE IS OF PARALYZING PEOPLE--
She kind of just wants to melt into the ground now, finding herself between the rock (Roxas) and the hard place (explaining to the person she likes what it feels like). But because it's Roxas, she can't bring herself to fumble for an excuse or lie or change the subject. He's only just realized he has a heart-- she can't do that to him.
But hnnnnngh. ]
It's... not exactly like that. There aren't any flower petals and sometimes you don't even realize it at first. Because it feels a lot like friendship. You're happy just being with them, and it hurts when they're sad or upset. It's kind of like having a best friend, I think, only they're important to you in a different kind of way. Like you'd do anything to make sure they're happy, and when they are, you're really happy too. And it's really comfortable being around them, but it can also make your chest hurt a little, because you feel a lot of things but it's hard to understand all of them and what they mean. You want to hold their hand or be close to them and... [ She trails off, before she gives her head a quick shake. ]
And sometimes your heart beats faster, but it's not always easy to get why it is, either. Sometimes it's just because they smile at you or say they were thinking about you.
and they resonate with him somewhat strangely. that... that's familiar to him. the idea of those feelings, the idea of a friend that is so important to him that he can't find the words for it—that he knows it's not a "best friend," but still some special.
someone he wants to be happy, someone who makes him sad when they're not happy. someone who makes him smile because they're smiling. the ache in his chest, and the lack of understanding. the thumping in his chest when that person is smiling...
his hand almost instinctively clutches his chest, just over his heart, and he draws in a quiet breath.]
That's... what it feels like?
[because...
when he thinks about mary, all of those things happen.]
Yeah... [ And Mary all but wheezes that out, as though she's just run some kind of marathon. An exhausting, talk-about-crushes-with-your-crush-without-outing-yourself marathon. ]
At least, to me. And Hiro said it was like that for him. I don't know if it's the same for everyone, but...
[ Maybe it is. She honestly doesn't know. All she knows is that she somehow managed to explain it, and Roxas looks more pensive than confused, so maybe he finally understands? ]
[he's not looking up at her yet, because... he's still thinking about it. all of those feelings, they're... what he connects with her. does that mean—]
I believe you. If you Hiro both say it's true... I believe you.
[he doesn't think they would lie about that. especially not when he can feel those things too. his gaze meets mary for a second, and because he's thinking about what everything means... his cheeks start to flush just a little and he shifts his gaze away.
[ As he shifts his gaze away, Mary's grows lightly puzzled. Between the two of them, she tends to turn pink way more often, and so to see the slightest bit of color in his face-- she doesn't even pause to consider that it might be due to the topic at hand. Is he feeling sick? Had she made him uncomfortable? ]
Roxas? [ she'll just ask then, tentatively. ] Are you okay?
[ She brightens first-- and then there's a smaller part that wonders if he gets it, because he's felt that, and an even smaller part whispers oh forlornly, because of course it'd be like that, he's amazing, someone must have realized that too. ]
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[??? he supports his friend's endeavors even if he doesn't understand them very well.]
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[ SHE BELIEVES. ]
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Yeah, I think you will. When you fall for someone, you'll probably get it.
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[he... really doesn't know what to make of that statement, honestly. it's one of those things that goes over his head.]
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[ This is not actually a conversation she wants to have. ]
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Yeah... I wish I understood what it was like, but it sounded confusing. [he's about to make things worse.]
Have you ever had one?
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Mary makes a dignified choked sort of squeak, and turns bright pink. Okay no calm down Mary don't alarm him you can be cool-- ]
Y-yes??
[ Nailed it. ]
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[roxas isn't sure what kind of answer he was expecting from that question, but it feels strange for sure.
so she's had a crush before. she knows what it feels like...]
Is it really like what the manga says? [he asks, a little quieter. the truth is that he wants to understand those feelings, but he can't make sense of them. maybe... she can help him, if she's been through it before.]
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She kind of just wants to melt into the ground now, finding herself between the rock (Roxas) and the hard place (explaining to the person she likes what it feels like). But because it's Roxas, she can't bring herself to fumble for an excuse or lie or change the subject. He's only just realized he has a heart-- she can't do that to him.
But hnnnnngh. ]
It's... not exactly like that. There aren't any flower petals and sometimes you don't even realize it at first. Because it feels a lot like friendship. You're happy just being with them, and it hurts when they're sad or upset. It's kind of like having a best friend, I think, only they're important to you in a different kind of way. Like you'd do anything to make sure they're happy, and when they are, you're really happy too. And it's really comfortable being around them, but it can also make your chest hurt a little, because you feel a lot of things but it's hard to understand all of them and what they mean. You want to hold their hand or be close to them and... [ She trails off, before she gives her head a quick shake. ]
And sometimes your heart beats faster, but it's not always easy to get why it is, either. Sometimes it's just because they smile at you or say they were thinking about you.
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and they resonate with him somewhat strangely. that... that's familiar to him. the idea of those feelings, the idea of a friend that is so important to him that he can't find the words for it—that he knows it's not a "best friend," but still some special.
someone he wants to be happy, someone who makes him sad when they're not happy. someone who makes him smile because they're smiling. the ache in his chest, and the lack of understanding. the thumping in his chest when that person is smiling...
his hand almost instinctively clutches his chest, just over his heart, and he draws in a quiet breath.]
That's... what it feels like?
[because...
when he thinks about mary, all of those things happen.]
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At least, to me. And Hiro said it was like that for him. I don't know if it's the same for everyone, but...
[ Maybe it is. She honestly doesn't know. All she knows is that she somehow managed to explain it, and Roxas looks more pensive than confused, so maybe he finally understands? ]
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I believe you. If you Hiro both say it's true... I believe you.
[he doesn't think they would lie about that. especially not when he can feel those things too. his gaze meets mary for a second, and because he's thinking about what everything means... his cheeks start to flush just a little and he shifts his gaze away.
a crush... on mary?
could that really be what this is?]
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Roxas? [ she'll just ask then, tentatively. ] Are you okay?
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[he doesn't know what to say, or how to say it, either.]
Yeah, I'm okay. [is he, though?]
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[ Maybe he hadn't understood. ]
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[it's actually the exact opposite of that, mary.]
I get it.
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[ She brightens first-- and then there's a smaller part that wonders if he gets it, because he's felt that, and an even smaller part whispers oh forlornly, because of course it'd be like that, he's amazing, someone must have realized that too. ]
... That's great, Roxas!
[ But she smiles anyway. ]
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[this is awkward. she's smiling and he can feel that pounding in his chest again.
what is he supposed to do? he can't? should he tell her?]
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Crushes suck. ]
Um... I think I'm ready to keep going.
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Oh... yeah, right. Sorry.
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when you realize that sentence was hella redundant
was it... i don't notice things apparently
mine was, lord
i didn't notice, it's fine
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