[those tears are about as heartfelt as it gets, riku can tell this much. if any doubt remained about nobodies and hearts, this moment now completely eliminates it. watching roxas cry like this hurts, too. if only he'd taken a chance to just talk with roxas or stood up against diz's insistence on doing things quickly then maybe things could've ended differently.
instead, he hurt another innocent person. no, not only hurt, but put an end to their life. roxas' hearts lives on inside sora, yeah, but living inside someone isn't the same as having a life. even when trying to do good, he still screws up playing the hero, doesn't he?]
No, I don't know. I didn't know way too much but didn't care because I was way too focused on saving my best friend.
[it blinded him more than that blindfold ever could. times he questioned things happened and several times. sacrificing someone who so obviously felt sora rubbed him wrong. by the time those uneasy feelings won out, sparing roxas from his fate was too late. the most he managed to do was spare namine from elimination when diz ordered it. ...even with her, she still wasn't spared from rejoining kairi, either.]
I guess I needed you to prove to me that... [he pauses, his frown deepening as he glances downward] That I stole your life from you.
[admitting that is hard. so hard. it implies that his goal for over a year had been a bad one... no, saving sora wasn't bad, but the way they went about it was. they wanted to do it quick. if a few nobodies were sacrificed then so what? no hearts meant it was okay.
but it wasn't. it felt wrong and was wrong. seeing him with mary like that, just being friendly and protective with her, drilled home the fact that he screwed up about as bad as it gets. nobodies like roxas and namine and xion all had hearts, all had lives. like a true villain, riku ignored that possibility and took away their chance at living.]
You had a right to live like anyone else with a heart; I denied you that right. Words don't make up for anything and I don't expect them to, but I... I'm sorry, Roxas.
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instead, he hurt another innocent person. no, not only hurt, but put an end to their life. roxas' hearts lives on inside sora, yeah, but living inside someone isn't the same as having a life. even when trying to do good, he still screws up playing the hero, doesn't he?]
No, I don't know. I didn't know way too much but didn't care because I was way too focused on saving my best friend.
[it blinded him more than that blindfold ever could. times he questioned things happened and several times. sacrificing someone who so obviously felt sora rubbed him wrong. by the time those uneasy feelings won out, sparing roxas from his fate was too late. the most he managed to do was spare namine from elimination when diz ordered it. ...even with her, she still wasn't spared from rejoining kairi, either.]
I guess I needed you to prove to me that... [he pauses, his frown deepening as he glances downward] That I stole your life from you.
[admitting that is hard. so hard. it implies that his goal for over a year had been a bad one... no, saving sora wasn't bad, but the way they went about it was. they wanted to do it quick. if a few nobodies were sacrificed then so what? no hearts meant it was okay.
but it wasn't. it felt wrong and was wrong. seeing him with mary like that, just being friendly and protective with her, drilled home the fact that he screwed up about as bad as it gets. nobodies like roxas and namine and xion all had hearts, all had lives. like a true villain, riku ignored that possibility and took away their chance at living.]
You had a right to live like anyone else with a heart; I denied you that right. Words don't make up for anything and I don't expect them to, but I... I'm sorry, Roxas.
[he truly is.]