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Everything that happened today feels like a blur. How do I even make sense of any of it?
They say my world was destroyed, but I don't have my own world. I don't know what worlds they were, or if they're ones I've been to. Or are they just lying to try and keep me here?
I wonder if Axel's okay. I don't think there's any way for me to check.

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I still haven't figured much else out.
Even after sleeping, I still feel tired. I don't remember having any dreams, though.
Maybe it's because I talked to so many people with hearts. They're confusing—is that what it's like to be whole?

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I'm supposed to have a job in an ice cream shop. I've always bought it, but never sold it, so I think it's weird to be on the other side of the counter.
Maybe it's not so bad, though. I have something to do—working it really all I did before, so it's similar that way.
Still, it's not the way I want to have ice cream. I'm not giving up on sharing it with them again.

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There aren't any Heartless here.
I'm pretty sure this is the first world I've been to without it. That part probably isn't so bad, even if a lot of other things are confusing.

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The more I think about it, the less I understand people.
Now I know why Axel always said that girls were confusing. Maybe it was for a different reason, but they really are complicated.
Every time I think I understand why being whole should be better, something else complicates it. Is having a heart really that much more satisfying? I still don't get it.

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What WAS that place? I saw Xion there... but I couldn't touch her or talk to her.
Other people were able to remember her too. They even said they were friends. And that she was here.
I don't really understand how that's possible. But if it means there's a way to bring her back without Kingdom Hearts or Sora, then I'll do whatever it takes.
I have to find a way. Her, and Axel too.

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Terra seemed surprised when I said I was winning against Riku.
I wonder how he knows him, or how they're really connected. Could I have something to do with it too?
Terra says I look like his friend Ven. Riku says I'm like Sora, that I'm his Nobody.
I don't know what to think about who I really am anymore. I just want to be me.

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Since I came here, I started counting the days again, just like I used to.
Two days ago would have made 365 back there. A year with the Organization. A year from being "born."
I've heard people talk about birthdays before. Does that count? Is it even really a year, when this world is so different?
It was summer in Twilight Town. People say here it's a winter month. I don't think I've ever been to a world where it was winter, though.
This place is strange.

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I took Mary to the top of a building I found with a nice view, and we had ice cream there together.
We're friends now, so I think it's okay to do things like that. It's not the same as before, but it was still nice. It felt really familiar, even though it was someone new.
I miss Xion and Axel, though. I miss the times we used to sit at the clock tower. I really wonder if it'll be possible to do it again one day.

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It's been raining all day.
The way everyone's talking, it's not very normal, either, but it doesn't seem like a very big deal.
A lot of people don't buy ice cream when it rains, though. After work, I bought some and watched the rain from the new spot. At least I don't need an umbrella.

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A platform in the city fell today, and everything is a mess now.
I helped Terra fight off some monsters, but they seemed to really wear him out. He mentioned being tired before too.
I'm kind of worried about it. Did something happen to him? He won't tell me, he just keeps saying he's fine, but I don't believe it.
I wish he would just be honest about it. I wanted to ask him about that armor, and what he did with his Keyblade, but things are too hectic right now.
I'll ask him another time.

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I tried to help Mary find some things she lost when the buildings collapsed today.
I didn't really know much about those things, but she said they were things her friends gave her. That means they were important to her, so I had to help.
I don't think I ever had anything like that, though. Maybe some of the seashells Xion brought me. But I didn't take those when I left.
Maybe I should have. Maybe some of the things that happened would feel so blurry and far away if I could see the things that reminded me of her.

Edited 2015-09-24 23:49 (UTC)

I got dragged into ViViD today.
I guess a bunch of new people showed up the same way I did, since there were a lot of people I didn't recognize.
One of them I did, though. It's Riku. Riku's really here now.
How many times is he going to ask me about Sora? When is he going to stop?
It makes me tired, and angry. But I don't really know what to do about it.

Edited 2015-09-24 23:50 (UTC)

I tried to call Terra today, but I didn't get any response.
I guess he's probably busy.
Asking him about the Keyblade and his friend will have to wait for another day.

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Terra's still not answering my calls.
Did something happen to him?
I'm worried about it.

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The reason Terra didn't answer me was because he got hurt. He's in the hospital.
I was a little worried before, but when he said that, something was different. I'm not really sure how to explain the feeling.
It was almost like... when she was disappearing, but not as bad.
He's going to be okay, but even a curaga wasn't enough. CERES is kind of scary if you get on their bad side.
Are they really set on destroying us if we do something that gets in their way? They say they're helping us, but I'm really not so sure.

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